back to High School

Since starting Crossfit 8 weeks ago on a challenge from my neighbor my body has transformed back to it's high school glory days. I finally broke down and went shopping last night only to discover that I am now at the same size I was in high school, although this time I'm not competing with other girls to look the best, I'm competing with myself to feel the best and perform the best. It's quite a different experience than before. 

Today was my first Sunday kinda alone. I worked out hard, physically and mentally. If you go to church regularly you know the feeling of a great sermon and walking out feeling like crap is a good thing.  

I was blasted with feelings of loss and suffering, both about my dad and my friend. The mystery of God is so evident in my life these days, I know he's bigger than my situation and has protected me in the past and will do so in the future. I know He's beside me in every Crossfit workout I do and with every tear I shed and this is where I'll leave it all. 

I'll leave all my worrying, wondering, anxiety, tears, sweat, bruises and blood as I go through this trial and figure out how to rely on God's grace and strength to get me through.